Out of the comfort zone

Can anyone believe it if I say World Cup might change my life?

It happens so, after the World Cup 2010 is over, I'm left devastated and lost, and realizing that my life is completely utterly boring. All my life I've been following some kind of a path (with minor exceptions for a few years, which then end up putting me back on this path) that someone (my parents, God, I dunno) have set up for me.

Deciding that I need a kick in my life, I thought about pursuing a career as a make-up artist. Huh?

So I talked to a good friend of mine, whose life has been turned 180 degree after she got married. She is glowing everyday, doing what she likes for a living, with a very supportive husband, and still part-time a career-woman. I envy her, 100%. So we discussed about the possibilities for me to have a different path of life. She - not me - decided that I'm multi-talented, and that I will succeed in anything I pursue seriously. And she talked about it, the make-up artist thing. I blabbered to her about it before, how it WOULD be nice, but I never thought of anything serious about it, because it's just a hobby, not really something I would do for a living (why the hell not??). Answer is always the same : "I don't know, it's just not for me"

That's just one of those "dreams" that faded away in my life.
What about my passion of becoming a fashion editor for a magazine ? - nah, decided against it because I don't have enough interest keeping up with the current Mode.
A manga-illustrator ? Too much work, have to take courses first, besides, any rich successful mangaka back home? Nope, don't think so.
Becoming an interpretor for the UN? GET REAL! Such a high-skilled job requires dedication over the years, which I don't have.
Just a translator then, it has to be a little easier, right? Yeah, "but daddy is against it"
Couple consultant! I'm a good listener, and I give away good advices, because I'm good at analyzing things and have experienced them all! Wait, don't this need some kind of a psychology degree? Pfft.

This is the result after I analyzed myself!

My life is way too comfortable as it is. I live in a nice home, has an easy job, good pay, even though it's boring. Trying to weigh all the pros and cons, it's obvious that I don't have the guts to leave this life. What if I don't succeed in this and that?? I have already a nice life, why bother??

So when someone is not pinched, she would not go the extra mile for something. When you're cornered, you have to use all kind of talents, even the ones you didn't think you had in you, just to survive this cruel world. And when you're not, all those talents would just go down the drain. Like mine.

I can do something about it. I can change my own life. But I probably won't. It's just too comfortable already. What if I don't succeed?? *snickers* Oh well, what a bloody spoiled girl. Just an event like World Cup couldn't possible change that fact.

World Cup is over boo hoo!

World Cup South Africa 2010 is over, and I'm officially sad and lost! I know I don't really watch football anymore, I don't care so much about the leagues anymore, but World Cup has been my favorite event! It's just so exciting. Plus it brings back the memory of my summer in Germany in 2006, where I could experience a lot of good and new things, (like meeting a cute dutch at the fanfest in Frankfurt Main)

Anywho, I never expected much from England. They were humiliated by the Germans. Not that I was that sad, because I support the Germans too, they've been good to me for a couple of years :P

In contrary to that, I was really really sad when the Germans lost to Spain. It's like the nightmare in 2006 came back haunting. They had such a smooth journey until the Spaniards beat them. Real sad, it could have been their year!

And the other team I support is of course the Oranje. As much as I was sad they lost to Spain too in the final, it wasn't really that bad. They were quite lucky to be able to reach the final, and Spain was just the better team that night.

What's making me super sad is that now I have to go back to my old boring life. Not having anything I'm excited about anymore is just really bringing me down. It suddenly made me miss living abroad so much. I want to experience something again! But.. I'm too afraid to get out of my totally comfort zone. It's like I'm just alive.. but I don't exactly live... (;_;)