Acceptance

I accept that my body is imperfect, it has wide bone structure, hence wide shoulder wide ribcage wide waist, it has very short torso, and that makes the waist look even wider. But for that, I have long legs, that even at 1,6m (5'4"), I don't look very short. I look good in short shorts. When I stretched one of my arms up and one down and I look at my own reflection, I seem to have very long limbs, due to my also long fingers and tiny wrists.

I accept the fact that no matter how hard I try, I could never have model's body, the proportional one, with small waist and wider hip (my hip is non-existent). I accept my height, I used to want to be taller so very much, but at this height I can date asian guys.

I also accept the fact that at 51kg, some people still think that I need to lose some weight. And when I lose mine til 48kg, I still look "bigger" than most 51kg-ers. What most people don't know, is that I probably have much less body-fat percentage than them, because I do a lot of excercises, and the fat spreads around my wider torso better and not stacked into one part (for example arm), so I still look boney. I also acknowledge that I wear bigger jeans size than some of my "fatter" friends, solely because of the body proportion I described in the 1st paragraph. And I don't feel hurt when we go to the same dressing room, try the same piece, and it fits on her but not me.

I accept and admit very much, that I have lots of stretch-marks and cellulites on both my thighs and butts. In exchange to that, I have super smooth skin that most guys are amazed of, and I can only say, girl, no matter how hard you try to maintain, it's really genetical. I inherit my skin from my mom, who's at young age didn't really do anything special to her skin, and now at 65 she still has skin like a 40-yr-old. Thanks mom.

What I don't accept is how insensitive some people can be sometimes. I don't appreciate being told "you gained weight" when I know for a fact that I don't. Or even when I do, I would still think "who asked for your opinion?".

I also hate when skinny girls "deliberately" rubbed it in my nose, that they can just eat anything and still lose weight. Well maybe you're lucky in that term, bitch, but know this: God is SUPER fair when He created human beings. Meaning, to cancel out your skinnyness, you're probably a dumb blonde, or you're probably smelly, or you probably just have irritating characters and have no friends. (This is not intended to a particular person, but more to any girl with that kind of attitude)

I think most girls have issue and insecurity regarding their body, and I'm definitely no exception. But once I start accepting my own flaws, I notice more of the good parts of me. And _then_ I can be much happier and not think so much about what I don't have. Think I'm making progress here...
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